Thanks God that I have some quiet time before I have a busy schedule in church yesterday. I hope I can continue to have this quiet time before everything. It is easy to be “doing things” but not easy to be “doing the right things” or even “doing the right things with the right mind”. I realised my spiritual grow was not much better when I am working busier than ever. This is dangerous to use church as a platform for our own fame and personal gain. I am afraid I have fallen into this. God’s love and our love for God should be the sole motivation and reason for serving in church. In the Martha and Mary story, Jesus said “You are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:41b-42). Promises came from the word from God and not the things we do for God. It is easy to “do this and that for God” but not “ renew our mind and love our God”.

During the worship, another Pr. Lau has taken over Pr. Lau during preaching as our Pr. Lau has suffered from heart problem. He has shared that to be a God’s disciple, we need to have a good role model and then follow him/her. We need to be “not conform to any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and prefect will” To be able to do this, we need to have integrity for God that we will be able to hold true to the teaching of God. He shared that there was a Deacons/Overseers has a narrow interpretation over “A deacon must be the husband of but one wife”, and therefore he resigned from his post once he is married to another women after his first wife passed away. This is integrity according to Pr. Lau. Although there is more than one interpretation for the acts of that deacon, he has illustrated a point that integrity is essential as a Christian. A Christian has to hold on strong to the words of God so as to become a good role model. However, when we hold on to our own set of rules and our own integrity, the family of church can be become problematic, causing disunity. I think Rev Lee has grew in his wisdom in speaking to the congregation. He said in yesterday AGM that we are disciples but we are like disciples recorded in those books of gospel who are immature. We should be working towards a goal to be like the disciples in the book of Acts like Simon Peter, Paul and Stephen. He makes a point. There’s disunity surfaced and most are hidden. Every time when a person left a church, I feel that it’s all happen suddenly, without any symptoms. I think I did not do enough to observe those signs.

I am glad to have Jinting among us. During lunch, she said she has invited Paulina to join us for the Mid-Autumn festival and shifted her German lesson to some other day because of the celebration. Keep it up! She said she will learn some Cantonese. She is taking effort to blend with us. But did we? We certainly not doing enough. This has reminds me of Fu Chai. He has taken a lot of effort to be part of our circle. He only becomes part of us after 2 to 3 years. It’s a very long period. If a new friend comes to our midst, he/she may not be so persistent to stay and takes effort to be part of us. They have no motivation to do this except if they already have a passion for Christianity before. Language is not our barrier but our heart to change for Christ’s sake is our main barrier for new friends to come among us. I am not being self-righteous because I have not done enough on my part. But I, as part of the youth, hope to grow as a group, as a family. Like what Pr. Lau preached, “do not conform to any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and prefect will”.

We had lunch meeting. I feel sorry for Chris not able to have a good lunch because he could not eat and take minutes at the same time. But the meeting, there are only me, Wing Yan, Jonah and Chris. It seems that we have not gotten all committee members to present in a single meeting. After that, I went back for the meeting with Auntie Michelle Wong. OMG. I realised I have become a finale item. That’s stressful for me. I just want to make this a qin song event.  And then I went for band practice. The first time I played yesterday I was so nervous that my fingers are so tight up that I hardly strummed the guitar. But when I relaxed, the song was going quite well. My skill bar-chording has improved. :D Our band has become better in terms of skill wise and also the mou qi. At least we could end together. :p Jia Jun yesterday was in a relaxed mood. He did not at his usual conductor seats. A sign of confident in us or a sign of giving up? haha. I think he’s fine with us. :D Jonah was a bit blur when he’s doing the lead singing. Maybe he has not recovered from the fright on the stage just now? Ha. But he’s always calm and steady on stage.

I left a bit early from band and headed towards home. I thought they were in the midst of the dinner but glad to catch the time before they starts. It was a buffet style dinner cater for Uncle Eric’s relatives in Singapore. And as usual, a durian cake was made yesterday for October Birthday people. Meimei hid in her room to make herself from the smell. I was okay with it since the smell is not that strong. Haha. Chris tried to disturb me using the durian cake but did not succeed. :p As I was tidying up the kitchen, I noticed a plate of cheesy mixed vegetable (haha. I don’t know the exact name) was left on the oven. Auntie Michelle said it was left for me because she thought I may not make it on time for dinner. How nice is she! :D Haha. It becomes my lunch today (left).